parties [birthday]

birthday parties are funtime.

i wish i had two a year.

that would be cool...



except for the part about getting old twice as fast eh?

well, happy birthday John Metcalf, on the 24th. (not today)

the fruits of the spirit...

so im doing this study thing on the fruits of the spirit, spending a week on each one and meditating on what different scriptures mean pertaining to the different fruits, and this is my first week, so i am on LOVE. and of course this means that i am PMSing all week. The scripture reference i'm using is Luke 6:27-36, but with special emphasis on verses 30 and 31. (Mal, you know what this is like) Now, all this is extremely taxing. everything is getting on my nerves, and i just really want to scream. and then hit something. and then both at the same time. and maybe after that i'll sit and hit my head against the wall for a few hours. *sigh. i just need a lot of prayer.

the good, the bad, and skillet...

last night i went to freedom fest and skillet concert. ordinarily i would be talking about it for days, and riding the high. but i was severely disappointed. i am not a huge fan of skillet, I've seen better shows, I've heard better songs, I've moshed and been moshed harder, and there was no fight circle. and seventh day slumber canceled, and i love that band so much more. they are better live than on CD. its great. plus, the lead singer is a GREAT speaker. they missed their flight and couldnt make it, so the lead singer of esterlyn spoke instead. not an inspirational story. "i lead a good life, but my heart was full of pride. who wants to accept Jesus?" i sure couldnt have done better on such short notice, but the events coordinator couldve picked someone with a life story. i pretty much loved the band though, they were really good. then again, i bought a hoodie with their name on it before i heard them, so i was obligated to either like them or come to terms with the fact that i wasted $25. well, thats life eh? i did have fun just hanging out though. tonight "The Classic Crime" and "Pillar" play. that would be SO metal. i think i wish i was there. but i went last night, and am totally out of money.

hmmmm... 3 a day?

3 a day. and not of dairy. but i just HAVE to say

me 'n God are totally tight.

and its awesome.

so yeah, just thought i'd throw that in.

even though that makes it the third post for today...

but whatever. they were all important!

well, im gonna go watch beauty and the beast w/ my sister in my room, so i'll catch all you cats later eh?

no thanks to you guys! ;P lol

i wrote the song with out any help on inspiration. and it turned out pretty good if i do say so myself... (which i do.) so yeah. i am pretty much VERY excited about the WHOLE thing, so yeah, that is today's great thing. also, i am really hungry.

a new song?

i am writing a song for my niece. and i am looking for inspiration. what inspires you?

today's cool thing:

this entry is going to be pink.

because...



i am having a niece!!!

IN DECEMBER!!

what a birthday present that will be...


i just found out the sex of the child today.

i called a bunch of people

untill my mom made me stop because i was using cell phone minutes, and those arent free you know.

it was great.

and most everyone screamed.

except amanda.

but shes not even MY friend, i called to talk to her older sister Jen.

so that doesnt matter.

also:


IT'S A GIRL!!!

this is very exciting news for me.

and i am totally going to be the favorite.

AGAIN!

so take that.

i heard this song on guitar hero 2

this song made me laugh. then smile. then laugh. i can relate!!! (its okay, you don't have to talk about it if you don't want to kid!) i really can relate. its totally awesome. the guy doesn't sing it, he screams the rhyming parts, and just recites the dialogue, so its a really hard song to play, but Oman is it great! just sharing the joy. i love the ending too, so read it all the way. cool. then download it so you can hear what it sounds like. its very... interesting. and i LOVE IT!!

SENSES FAIL LYRICS

"Institutionalized"

[Originally by Suicidal Tendencies]

Sometimes I try to do things, and it just doesn't work out the way I wanted to.
And I get real frustrated and like I try hard to do it.
I like take my time and it just doesn't work out the way I wanted to.
It's like I concentrate on it real hard and it just doesn't work out
And Everything I do and everything I try it never turns out.
It's like I need time to figure these things out.
There's always someone there going

Hey Buddy:
You know, we've been noticing you've been having a lot of problems lately.
You know, you need to maybe get away and like maybe you should talk about it,
you'll feel a lot better

I go:
No it's okay, you know I'll figure it out, just leave me alone I'll figure it out.
You know I'll just work it out myself.

And they go:
Well you know if you want to talk about it I'll be here you know and you'll
probably feel a lot better if you talk about it, so why don't you talk about it?

I go:
No. I don't want to talk about it. I'm okay, I'll figure it out myself but they just keep
bugging me and they just keep bugging me and it builds up inside.

So you're gonna be institutionalized
You'll come out brainwashed with bloodshot eyes
You won't have anything to say
They'll brainwash you until you see their way.

I'm not crazy (being institutionalized)
You're the one who's crazy (being institutionalized)
You're driving me crazy (being institutionalized)

They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
to give me the needed professional help
to protect me from the enemy, myself

I was in my room and I was like just sitting there staring at the wall thinking about
everything but then again I was thinking about nothing
And my mom came in and I didn't even realize she was there and she calls my
name but I didn't even hear it, and she started screaming BUDDY! BUDDY!
And I go:
What, what's the matter?
And she goes:
What's the matter with you?
I go:
There's nothing-wrong Mom.
And she goes:
Don't tell me that, you're on drugs!
I go:
Mom I'm not on drugs I'm okay, I was just thinking you know, why don't
you get me a pepsi?
And she goes:
NO you're on drugs!
I go:
Mom I'm okay, I'm just thinking.
She goes:
No you're not thinking, you're on drugs! Normal people don't act that way!
I go:
Mom just give me a Pepsi please
All I want is a Pepsi, and she wouldn't give it to me
All I wanted was a Pepsi, just one Pepsi, and she wouldn't give it to me.
Just a Pepsi.

They give you a white shirt with long sleeves
Tied around you're back, you're treated like thieves
Drug you up because they're lazy
It's too much work to help a crazy

I'm not crazy (being institutionalized)
You're the one who's crazy (being institutionalized)
You're driving me crazy (being institutionalized)

They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself

I was sitting in my room and my mom and my dad came in and they pulled up
a chair and they sat down and they go:
Buddy, we need to talk to you
And I go:
Okay what's the matter?
They go:
Me and your mom we've been noticing lately that you've been having a lot of
problems, you've been going off for no reason and we're afraid you're gonna
hurt somebody, we're afraid you're gonna hurt yourself.
So we decided that it would be in your interest if we put you somewhere
where you could get the help that you need.
And I go:
Wait, what are you talking about, WE decided!? MY best
interest?! How do you know what MY best interest is? How can you say what
MY best interest is? What are you trying to say, I'M crazy? When I went to
YOUR schools, when I went to YOUR churches, when I went to YOUR institutional learning
facilities?! How can you say I'm crazy?

They say they're gonna fix my brain
Alleviate my suffering and my pain
But by the time they fix my head
Mentally I'll be dead

I'm not crazy (being institutionalized)
You're the one who's crazy (being institutionalized)
You're driving me crazy (being institutionalized)

They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself

It doesn't matter. I'll probably get hit by a car anyway.