long time no... post.

sup?



i sometimes wonder if anyone even checks this thing.



i sure dont, lol.



so...



a lot has changed



a lot has gone on



a lot has...



well...



transpired.



i am surprizingly chill with everything thats gone on,



on the outside that is.



i can convince myself that everything is fine, and that it will get better,



but during the early hours of the morning when my life choices keep me awake



or when i have another nightmare



everything feels so huge and overpowering



and so



i dunno, daunting?



is that the right word for completely and totally in the front of my mind and i cant seem to forget about it?



or anything?



this is really like,



emo.



which i hate.



really i do.



i'm not emo



or a punk,



or a rocker, scene kid, prep, jock, insert label here,



im just me.

and thats what it all comes down to isnt it?

behind all the clothes and the labels and the styles

we all bleed red.

we're all people.

and thats what matters.